本科毕业后，俺再次为情所困，比较深。mm，cute，有工作，slender, hot temper，kind of attractive，据说有bf 俺，Master degree，可用英文交流包括泡妞（初级），聊天，吵架以及专业学术Q&A；不高，不怎么帅，在找工作，初来乍到 相识：由于误会，我被高估成拿顶级奖学金NUS PhD学生 进展：由于长期读书，远离情场多年，不能太快领会mm的意思，说实话，不太清楚对方意思，聊过几次，mm回答总是让我有幻 想，也可能mm说话的风格有点儿不拘小节。目前两地相隔，更无法继续。 现在就是有点儿烦了。要找工，要考试，这些对我更现实。mm可爱，可能其他人和我看法也雷同。年纪够大了，没过多精力和时 间。先告一段落了。 到此一游，发泄一下。

俺终于平静下来了 i finally calm the fucking down经过这么长时间的挣扎，我终于平静了。 痛苦是自己造成的，找到原因就解决了。 dating mm requires skills, experience, and money. for the first sight, you are not supposed to be disgusting to mm. your basic qualifications (e.g. education) must meet mm's requirements. never try to change or argue with mm until mm falls in love with you. those are all from my heart and soul. i miss a chance but i learned a lesson. i need to read more about dating, relations and know more about gals. right now, i get myself back to track. hopefully, a decent job comes to me ASAP. mm turns to be a part of memory. she is not the first memory of this kind. what if she is the last one, then i still got the chance. cheers mates!