每次特别孤单的时候，来这里。不知道是在等奇迹还是什么。上次我写了个想找男朋友的post。之后，又觉得在受到的信中找不到要找的东西。Damn it. Chinese is just so slow in typing that my thoughts get too impatient waiting for it. So.
I guess i am looking for love. I look for it partout. I start to get this feeling that my life is slipping away, because i wasn't at the right place at the right time. I want to be happy. And i was comtemplating that notion whille walking randomly on campus. The reason why i am not happy is because i didn't have what i want. And solve that, i either get what i want or stop wanting it. You know, what you are too sad, you start theorize things to no ends. I don't know what i should do. I envy the people around me, who have found their significant others. But I don't want to settle for just any Tom, Dick or Harry. Because i am going to live with this person for life and i want to admire him from the bottom of my heart. How do you fall in love over the cyberspace? A bunch of 0s and 1s.
i wish someone would read my blog. My incoherent and impassioned blog.

Yah, i know you know who i am. I mean you know my name. Just to clarify, I really meant to use the names as names. Of course what you are saying has much truth to it. Well, maybe saying someone is desperate for love doesn't sound flattering at any rate. But humans need love is a biblical truth. There is hardly sense in any pretendence otherwise. So i say yes. A very desperate yearning. A desire. I further hope that my admission of such a desire would make a baby step towards riddance of such unduely negative connotation associate with desperation for love. Searching for love is as core to human as searching for truth for humanity.

as i said, what you said is not wrong. It's just that the culture that we live in has given it a negative connotation. Please don't apologize for it.