俺终于平静下来了 i finally calm the fucking down经过这么长时间的挣扎，我终于平静了。 痛苦是自己造成的，找到原因就解决了。 dating mm requires skills, experience, and money. for the first sight, you are not supposed to be disgusting to mm. your basic qualifications (e.g. education) must meet mm's requirements. never try to change or argue with mm until mm falls in love with you. those are all from my heart and soul. i miss a chance but i learned a lesson. i need to read more about dating, relations and know more about gals. right now, i get myself back to track. hopefully, a decent job comes to me ASAP. mm turns to be a part of memory. she is not the first memory of this kind. what if she is the last one, then i still got the chance. cheers mates!